indecisive day.

Today was good. back to those lazy saturdays around Geneva. They seem to be quite lonelier when you live off campus. still great. it was nice coming off of a jammed packed summer to have time for me. Just a time to sit around and enjoy the beautiful sunlight shining through the windows of 119<3. Its turning into a home here, the neighbors are friendly, they have welcomed us with open arms (: It makes me smile. its a nice little community.
Today i woke up planning on going to Poland to watch Rodolfo (one of the boys from mexico who got adopted by my professor) play in his first soccer game. It didnt work out because, if you know me, you know i get lost easily and I have this relentless pride about admitting it to people. So i decided thats not how i wanted to spend my saturday. So then i decided to tag along with one of my room mates and go shopping in Robinson. While eating breakfast this morning, i decided that is not how i wanted to spend my saturday either. It was crazy... one option after the other i was turning down. I get so angry at myself when i do that because usually after all of my options are long gone i am left with regret. Not today. I was pacing and confused on what to do.. but i was so excited to have a day that i decided to sit. To take time to listen and love life. Today that decision was a great one. finally i was happy with being indecisive.
So i packed up my homework which included the popular Children's literature- Charlotte's web and some poli sci. then headed out doors. It was a beautiful day. I didnt do any homework while sitting outside. I took time to be still. Being still is something that i forget to do. It is so easy but in the world we live in it's not anymore. it's easy to sit and have music playing, to talk on the phone, or even sleep. Today i made the goal to be still, to listen to God knowing He has something to say. I encourage you to do the same. Be still in a world that is SO LOUD.
Other than that after a while i retreated back to the house when it started to get too warm. I picked up Charlotte's web and read aloud in the quiet lonely house. The whole book. It was fun and I really loved the cute, innocent story of a friendship between that little pig and that magnificent spider. It took me back to my childhood. It was a fun day.

It's funny my biggest fear is loneliness. The definition of loneliness- without companions. But, I love to be alone, completely on my own. So thinking about this today brought me to the question Am i ever alone? My conclusion- never .. God is near.

I leave with the words to Taps. every night during the summer. Camp was silent for a few short seconds to be reminded that God is Nigh(near) Believe.

Day is done, gone the sun, From the lake, from the hills, from the sky; All is well, safely rest, God is nigh.