Popping flowers with kairty after a long day :)

This is why i love CK(my roommate) she writes me notes when she finds something interesting <3 ahh its going to be a good day!

CAMP pictures..

The first one is Julie, we got to co together in one of the best cabins EVER! She is really close to my heart and i miss her terribly.



The rest are of friends and campers, it was, again incredible! <3 ohh SB2W

indecisive day.

Today was good. back to those lazy saturdays around Geneva. They seem to be quite lonelier when you live off campus. still great. it was nice coming off of a jammed packed summer to have time for me. Just a time to sit around and enjoy the beautiful sunlight shining through the windows of 119<3. Its turning into a home here, the neighbors are friendly, they have welcomed us with open arms (: It makes me smile. its a nice little community.
Today i woke up planning on going to Poland to watch Rodolfo (one of the boys from mexico who got adopted by my professor) play in his first soccer game. It didnt work out because, if you know me, you know i get lost easily and I have this relentless pride about admitting it to people. So i decided thats not how i wanted to spend my saturday. So then i decided to tag along with one of my room mates and go shopping in Robinson. While eating breakfast this morning, i decided that is not how i wanted to spend my saturday either. It was crazy... one option after the other i was turning down. I get so angry at myself when i do that because usually after all of my options are long gone i am left with regret. Not today. I was pacing and confused on what to do.. but i was so excited to have a day that i decided to sit. To take time to listen and love life. Today that decision was a great one. finally i was happy with being indecisive.
So i packed up my homework which included the popular Children's literature- Charlotte's web and some poli sci. then headed out doors. It was a beautiful day. I didnt do any homework while sitting outside. I took time to be still. Being still is something that i forget to do. It is so easy but in the world we live in it's not anymore. it's easy to sit and have music playing, to talk on the phone, or even sleep. Today i made the goal to be still, to listen to God knowing He has something to say. I encourage you to do the same. Be still in a world that is SO LOUD.
Other than that after a while i retreated back to the house when it started to get too warm. I picked up Charlotte's web and read aloud in the quiet lonely house. The whole book. It was fun and I really loved the cute, innocent story of a friendship between that little pig and that magnificent spider. It took me back to my childhood. It was a fun day.

It's funny my biggest fear is loneliness. The definition of loneliness- without companions. But, I love to be alone, completely on my own. So thinking about this today brought me to the question Am i ever alone? My conclusion- never .. God is near.

I leave with the words to Taps. every night during the summer. Camp was silent for a few short seconds to be reminded that God is Nigh(near) Believe.

Day is done, gone the sun, From the lake, from the hills, from the sky; All is well, safely rest, God is nigh.

Unashamed

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete



I'm weak, I'm unworthy - He still loves me. What a great, amazing, astounding, beautiful God we live for.
This song speaks my heart.

i'm a senior in college.. when did this happen?

So school has started.. today was the first day of classes. I have actually been in good old BF for a while now.. I was here for Freshman Orientation. It was fun ( a lot of work) but lots of fun. Socializing with the freshman made me think about when I was a freshman and how fast time goes by. I have changed so soo much since freshman year. It is cool that I can notice that. It is strange to think how much i hated this place as a freshman. Now i don't want to leave! I love Geneva it is such a great place. The mission statement is absolutely true, they are "Growing servant leaders" and they do it well. For freshman (my advice to you) GET INVOLVED, love to learn, and appreciate the time you have. It's precious time.
So as a senior. It is really sad to say but I am not doing student activities. I am really bummed about it but it just doesnt fit into my schedule to be so busy. I am having a hard time not being involved in that way. But pray that God opens and shuts doors for me to serve in other ways on and off of Geneva's campus this year. Also as a senior I am living off campus. Which is HUGE for me because I LOVE being on campus and socializing. My goal is to still be on campus a lot and be present while I can be. I am living with some great room mates who I have been with since freshman year (so fun!) and we have a really cute house (: I will also put pictures up soon (i hope, i lost my camera converter thing)
hmm .. classes are going to be really great.. I will be teaching a lot this semester. I havent gotten my placements yet but hopefully soon. it is an exciting time! All i have left are education classes (and poli sci, thats not really anything to talk about though) so I will be focusing on what i am passionate about.
other than that, i think thats about it for my life update right now.

A couple things for prayer:
1) finding a place where I am supposed to serve this year
2) my decision to student teaching abroad ( i have to apply soon)
3) returning to Mexico as the student leader ( pray for my leadership, preparation, and support)
4) relationships ( that i could be intentional)

Thank youuuu<3 Be a blessing!

Romans 5:1-5

its been a loooong time..

wow, well life has been a whirl wind.  Like i said before, I worked at one of the most incredible places in the World this summer.  Summers Best two weeks has flipped my world upside down.  God is so good, and He is good ALL the time.  Hopefully I will be able to put up pictures soon, but pictures wont even do  justice to what happened in my heart this summer.  Wow I miss Sb2w sooo much.  I have so many stories and so many memories that I will hold very very close to my heart forever.  I am not going to share them on here because I love conversation.  That is just one thing i learned this summer.  That communication and fellowship is necessary in the world we live in.  Just reading a blog or texting a quick message is not enough.  You learn from conversations, face to face conversation that are meaningful and it doesnt happen enough. I would love to have that conversation, with anyone who is willing to take time to do that.  (:  But camp is hard to explain.  "Camp, is just camp"  so close to my heart because I was changed.  God used a little (well huge) camp to change me- to radically change my heart.  I was sent there to serve children and lead them to Jesus.  Of course I was used to do just that but what really happened is God used those girls and the staff to challenge me to pursue Him with everything in my being.  I have made that promise to do that.  I will chase after Him with everything I have inside of me.  

Here are some quick memories that you may not get if you you never experienced camp (again- i would love to explain them to you)

1) dining hall singing (yes I'm number 3)

2) GITC

3) Canoe canoe?

4) Jill bontrager at the ropes course (: hahaha

5) "Jesus is good looking" .... "I'm sorry if I offended you by saying you were hott Jesus."

6) morning exercises (rain or shine)

7) 1 million 36 thousand 800 seconds of each and every term

8) heptathalon

9) CAb LEV 3rd term<3

10) and of course.... ROMANS ARE WHAT? RED HOTT (:

This doesnt even put a dent into what happened in boswell, Pa this summer.